Homing in on completion

BONJOUR.

So I finally feel like I am completely on top of things and therefore I am actually pretty relaxed about this hand-in as I am not rushing about like a loony trying to finish things off here and there.

That being said I have a few bits and bobs to do to be completely finished but nothing a quick hour working away wont fix. I am happy with what I have produced and hope, pray and beg that it is enough to justify a reasonable grade for this unit. I have fought a personal battle throughout with myself and my lack of confidence and bad attitude. Thankfully with a little perseverance I have got there in the end.

Below I had added some images from my street installation 'Pop up Gallery' that involved combining the huge macro images of areas of the street with the original images of the street. If that makes sense...although I didn't get much interest, in fact at least 4 people crossed the road to avoid I actually really enjoyed set-up and seeing it all together in the street. I personally don't know of anyone else crazy enough to set up a pop up gallery in a street in the ever wet Scotland.

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 So the deadline is the week of November 2nd so not long to go, THANK GOODNESS. Once this is all handed in I am going to look more into my essay research and also make a start on my UCAS application for Honours Year.

Also pleased to report that I have DONE and DUSTED my graduation plan ready for hand in (I actually completed this a WEEK before - I must be sick). Throughout all the research into my future goals, I realised I need to get my arse in gear as time is running away from under me and UCAS deadlines are Christmas! 

Hopefully by the next blog post I will have completed UCAS...finger crossed but don't hold your breath.

bubye.

 

POSTIVIE PROGRESS

Hello,

Happy to report that I have a must more postive attitude on my project now. I took it back to the drawing board and decided to use the lack of interaction and reactions to form a linking project idea.

Using the fact that what I placed in the non-place was irrelevant and not noticed I decided to focus on some previous photos I had got. These photos were taken using a macro lens therefore it was of areas not visible to the human eye. I have decided I will incorporate my Smile Project idea to this new idea by blowing up the images to A1 size and then placing them on top or next to the original.

 ^ this is a mini mind map of what I'm trying to achieve!

Thankfully this idea is very much related to what I have done already as I really loved my idea at the start, it (maybe I) had lost the motivation and stamina needed!

Maybe it was my weekend away, where I could just chill with no internet or phone signal that calmed me down.

near giving up.

this time i attempted to make my door mat a lot more notiacble with balloons. unfortunately there were not many people passing and those who did barely even looked, except one couple..who paused for a time and laughed.

suppose one reaction out of a possible 6 (most people seemed to avoid the area all together) is not too bad.

an attempt.

This was a early morning attempt at my 'May your Bus be on time.'

However, from this little clip you can see that the door mat is not well seen. So, back to the drawing board.

the struggle is really really real.

Evening,

Needed to do something to calm me down, so ranting on about how much I am struggling seems like an approriate course of action.

Basically this project is becoming the bane of my life, never have I ever felt so depressed, deflated and exhusted over a bloody 8 week project. It is mentally draining as the subject matter is so philosopical and I really did not enjoy philosophy at school.

EVERYPLACE IS BOTH A PLACE AND A NON PLACE. WHAT. This is why I am still struggling, I just cant work out an idea that would please my lecturers.

I liked my idea at the beginning but when it come around to doing the very public pieces I have to do, I freeze then want to cry and spew in sync. I think I am driving my mother and my boyfriend mad with my pussy attitude as they see the potential in my idea but I cannot.

Im really disapointed in myself for letting a project get me so upset, I cant sleep, eat or function properly as I am concious of the fact that if I eat I'm wasting time, if I sleep I'm wasting time and obviously working my arse off at actual work is not getting any project work done.

Ive got such a negative attitude and I doubt that will change any time soon, Ive prepared for failure..although I dont know how I would cope remediating this bloody project as I would quite like to put it to bed.


I'll let you know how I get on, as I think I've had my rant for tonight.

Off for a voddy.



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Plodding on..

So this week as been quite productive, due to the fact I have finally plucked up the courage to do a part of my project that involves public non places and possible reactions from strangers. WOW. As detailed below in my sketchbook entry, it was a pleasurable and positive experience that boosted my confidence.

 

Here are some of the images I got from the day.

On another positive note, I finally launched 'The Smile Project' which quickly gained 28 likes within 24hours. I encouraged my Facebook friends to share it so I got 3/4 strangers liking the page too! Hopefully now I am beginning to document my project and also leave small indications of who is responsible (for example: I attached a balloon to a bus stop to hopefully make someone smile and like my page). 

Overall it's been productive so far so long  may it last. 

Toodles.